I'm Thankful.

I am writing this at 8:30 on Sunday morning. I have been awake for about two hours now, even though I planned on sleeping in today. I wake up at 5:45 for work during the week, so my body won't sleep past 7 anymore. I also can't stay awake any later than 10:30 now. I haven't been to bed that early ever since I started staying up late to sneak and watch BET uncut back in my adolescent days, I guess I'm getting old. 

I've tried to go back to sleep but I can't. While I was laying in my bed, my mind started racing, this happens often. The thoughts were very random at first, about what I want to do today, hoping that the snow doesn't come, about the dunk contest last night and the Paddington Bear movie that I saw yesterday with my niece. My mind was all over the place, and then out of nowhere, money popped in my head. I started wondering how much was in my bank account, and how I don't have enough, and what I need to do to get more. I felt myself beginning to worry and become stressed.  

This week, I met up with my potnas Jordan and Turtle. I had a really good time catching up with them. They were both teammates of mine in college and I look at both of them as brothers now. We were discussing life and how we are going to make it like we usually do, when Jordan brought up something that was worrying him. My man Turtle, cut him off in the middle of his sentence. He said that Ghandi told him, "There is nothing that wastes the body like worry, and the one who has any faith in God should be ashamed to worry about anything whatsoever." 

This morning in the middle of my worry session, I heard Turtle's St. Louis accent pop into my head. I immediately decided to stop worrying. I decided to think about how blessed I am. I have so many things to be thankful for. I have my health, I have an awesome family and great friends. I have an amazing woman and little girl that love me to death. My bills are paid, I have a brand new box of Lucky Charms AND milk, I'm good! I have more than enough. God has always been so good to me, and I know that he will continue to be.

God is good, All the time and yall know the rest. *cues praise and worship music, preferrably 90's Kirk Franklin* 

These last few months have been some of the toughest months of my life. Myself and people close to me have been dealing with a lot. It seems like everybody that I know is dealing with something. I guess that's just life. Sometimes it is difficult not to worry, and to stay postive. However, I don't have a choice, I know that everything is going to work out how it is supposed to, worrying about something will not change the outcome. Happy Sunday, it's time for me to go make a Craig sized bowl of cereal.