Wake up, wake up, wake up.

I find myself saying this every month, but I can't believe that it's already June.  Time is flying, I feel like I should stop being so surprised by this because it clearly isn't slowing down, ever...I woke up excited today. I have this weird thing with fresh starts. I am excited on Mondays for this reason. I am also excited every first of the month for the same reason, and because it gives me a reason to play Bone Thugs and rap along mumbling words and acting like I'm in the video. When the first of a month falls on a Monday I get geeked. It makes me want to start all types of challenges. I start thinking that I should read a book every day, or do 10, 000 push ups for the month, or go vegan for the month (until I think about all the BBQ Chicken that I would have to give up) it makes me really want to conquer the month. 

This being the first day of the last month of the first half of the year, and a Monday, I was ready for action. This year has thrown some curveballs at me so far, but I'm still here and I'm feeling great. I feel like I'm making good progress in my life. The progress isn't coming fast, but slow progress is better than no progress.  

My plan was to wake up at around 6 today and get my day started. I was going to wake up, pray, read, brainstorm, write my goals for the month, workout, shower, eat and get to work. However, I was up later than expected fooling with Alex. I'm not mad at that at all. So I woke up around 7:45, didn't have time to workout so that got postponed until tonight. I prayed in bed, just a quick thank you. God said “no problem”. I went to the bathroom, knew I wasn't gonna have time to read or write out my goals but I did have some time to think in there. While I was sitting there I pulled out my phone and was going through some old notes that I had in it. I have a lot of randomness in my notes, song lyrics, recipes, old church notes, and other things that I jot down real quick that I don't use. While scrolling through, I saw something that my dad told me about 6 months ago on the phone. He told me that “The decisions that you make today, create the reality that you live in tomorrow.” I haven't thought about this since the day he told me. I remember when he told me this asking whose quote it was and he said that it's his. It really resonated with me that day and I was disappointed in myself when I realized that I forgot all about it until today. His words were so true, my reality today is definitely the direct result of decisions that I've made so far this year.

Reading this made me think. Instead of making my goals for the month, I decided to make decisions. I've made a lot of goals over the years, reached some, didn't reach others. For me, goals have always been things that I've WANTED to do, but they weren't definite, they were almost optional. I was hopeful that I would accomplish them. But decisions are different, after I make a decision I feel as though it is already so. I've decided to no longer be hopeful about my life. It's MY life. I know what I want from it and how to make those things happen. Now I just have to decide that those are happening and do it. There are some things that I can not control in my life, I'm not worried about them, I am focused on what I can. I started today on Monday, the first. I wrote out my June Decisions. Things that I have decided to do for the month. Now it's time to make them happen.